melancholy

on this beautiful fall day the air is brisk and the sun is shining brightly through our ever so narrow windows. after taking the afternoon off for an appointment, i find myself relishing in the fact that i am home, with my boys, and it is only two in the afternoon. a feeling of relief has washed over me. however there is also another feeling that closely followed my relief, a feeling of great melancholy. my current surroundings are reminiscent of the life we had not so long ago. a life where there was a natural balance. a life where i could fit it all in.

oh how i miss watching dancing with the stars, searching the web endlessly, blogging, and reading books that didn't revolve around education. i miss the lazy mornings lounging around in our pjs until lunch. i miss my friends and play dates. i miss the feeling of being rested and the energy i though i never had. i miss...

reading endless books to gibson and elliott. i miss the silly books, long books, short books, any books that were read while we were all cozied under a blanket on the couch.

i miss having a warm cup of tea at any time of the day, sipping on it whenever it moved me.

i miss my clean house. how i long to keep up with it all.

and the thing i miss most of all is the time i got to spend with my boys. oh how i miss it!